Day 20 by Coco Sato

“One moment I am so passionate,
intense and depth in thought,
but superficial at times.
My mind fragments.”

what does fragments mean?

break apart into isolated parts.

my mind fragments.

what does that mean?

scattered thoughts.

this coming Friday.

a crazy shoot.

tomorrow, (in another 5 hours)
visit police station for research.

day job requirement.

tired. sleepy.

lack of sleep.

emotional.

why?

lack of love?

goodbye.

till then.

-chinyew

oh, yeah,

today’s work:

and of course not forgetting,

the final part of the video:

i am very-very thankful for Verna Vogel.

that she believed in this
as much as we do.

she did her first run on June 2006.

her second on June 2007.

June belongs to her.

beside i and i-ming, Verna did it twice.

how does twice feels?

well, check out her quote:

Day 19 by Verna Vogel

“I refuse to give up on this canvas.
It may take a long time yet,
but one day this one will be beautiful.
I just know it.”

artist inspired one another.

you have no idea how much this very quote
meant to me today.

was at work. audition. got back late.
ate alone.

thinking of the movie i watched last night.
a sappy Andy Lau movie “All about Love.”

i had trouble breathing when i watched
that movie.

sad.

love.

life.

sigh.

a friend asked me a question, couple of days ago.

a personal-love related question.

it got me thinking.

but nevermind, won’t share it here.

it’s for me to journey myself.

till then.

ok, still no news of Brandi.

Day 18 by Brandi

“Okay, self-pity and whining over,
But I do reserve the right
to bring them back at any time.”

many times. many moments.
i feel like quiting.
telling everyone,
“look, i fail this year.

i’ll be pending on the comic.”

many times.

so tempting.

i struggle to make these pages to come out.

and i’m proud of it.

atleast it turned out not too bad.

more to come. harder shot to draw.

tomorrow is Sunday. and i have to go back
to office to cast actors.

5 more hours to rest,
and my eyes are still wide open,
shouldn’t have slept this afternoon.

grrr..

but…

sigh.

self-pity works sometimes, but also…

self-encouragement!

c’mon, i can do it! 12 more days!

12 friggin more!

-chinyew

Coco resides in Uk,
taking care of her child
and doing art.

during her run, it was fun
seeing how she interact her
art with her kid.

her art has progress so much,
check her out at her website.

she has a good profile at Saatchi Online.

Day 17 by Coco Sato

“It did not come back to me suddenly,
rather,
I struggled to express it through
the brush.”

today’s post;

well, it’s a struggle.

yesterday, the pages came out smoothly.
but today, well, i’m late.

day job;
got a load of concept paper to write.
people to interview.
got a shoot on 24th.

skipping my gig performance.

think my brother should perform.

anyway, the brush strokes today
are pretty thin-fine.
wasn’t very confident.

not sure why.

sigh, weekend. rush this. rush that.

will work on day job paperwork first,
then start off early with the pages.

till then.

-chinyew

another great quote by Julia Oscarson.

having her words and works archived in
30dayartist.com is our treasure.

you can always go back to read
her post over and over again,
and get inspired!

Day 16 by Julia Oscarson

“Things seem to be rolling into
the right place now for me.
It feels good.
I feel like I have gotten back
onto the right track again.”

inspired, i finished 4 pages today.

amazing for a weekday, eh?

weekend’s coming, and the plot thickens.

till then.

-chinyew

it would be really-really awesome,
if i could take time off to do
this run.

it’s somehow affecting my day work.

the lack of sleep.
the grumpiness.

i’ll probably get fired soon,
if i don’t start acting like
i’m really workin, rather
than just cruising.

15 days. another 15 more to go.

Day 15 by me.

“the experience feels like
a strong concentration,
which doesn’t require any thinking
but just doing.”

looking back at this old post,
it makes me feel like painting again.

maybe i should. sometime later.

or maybe not.

but painting the small angels
were fun.

it really does sway me away from
my troubled mind.

’nuff said. gotto get some
sleep. 3 more hours to work time.

sigh.

and now onto today’s work.

i modified the last page
of yesterday’s sequence.

i don’t think i’ll be calling
them scenes anymore, but sequence.

scenes are too heavy to be finished
in 30days.

-chinyew

i really like Robbie’s run.
do not be surprised by looking at his work,
he is a very positive person.
i categorized his art as Indie Art.

very underground.
very child-like.
very real.

the most alternative/interesting works
i’ve seen of all 30dayartists.

and most of all, i like his character.
he challenges people who tells him “NO.”

Day 14 by Robbie Nolan

“I also did this,
my dad said I shouldn’t put it up,
but personally i prefer it,
so there.”

he believed in his work.

he also believed that Stanley Donwood
would drop by. but he did not.
he continued the entire run positively,
even till day-30, still hoping that
Stanley would one day check out his work.

Believe.

heh.

feeling a bit eccentrical today.

a mixture of longing for love,
but yet, wanting to be alone.

how feelings like that could contradicts one another,
yet co-existing together at the same time?

Believe.

a very strong word.

in ourselves? or others?

one side more than the other?

i realized when i believed in something
to obsessively, it separates me from
other people.

Believe. believe. believe.

for tomorrow, i’m gonna dedicate
myself to the manifestation of
believing nothing.

not in a skeptical way,

but in a non-existence of thought way.

for today’s work, relevant to everything;

-chinyew

ok, i’m admitting this.
(only via internet.)

i have attitude problem.
a long time ago, somebody read my palm,
and gave me an advise,
he said that i will have a great career
ahead, but, my emotions are my obstacles.

i’m a very emotional person.

i cry on movies that i watch.

i cried on Cinema Paradiso, The Notebook,
and many-many Korean flicks.

i can’t control my emotions very well.
i get angry easily. sometimes i’m able to.

but i can explain myself.

my whole life i’ve been wanting to seek
truth in all things.

even people.

if i just sense a little insincere character,
i’ll get very frustrated.

i get frustrated easily.

i’m trying to control this emotion problem
that i have.

are artist like that?

my mom says that i have “artist attitude problem”.

i cannot agree with her more.

but is it a problem?

is it wrong for me to feel
sincerely of how i feel about things?
is it wrong for me to hate fake people?

i just got back from a retreat-session organized
by the production house that i’m workin for.
in my entire life workin experience,
this is the first(and only) company
that treat their staffs to a spa session.

we were havin great fun. unlimited food/drinks.
steamin gas/water. massage.

we were like kings.

back to my point, we had a session where
we were supposed to write about every single
person of how we feel about them.

i get comments, well, they were similar to
the palm reading i had.

i know i have that problem.

but is it really a problem?

to be critical on insincerity of things?

well, guess i’ll take Alan’s quote-advise
for the mean time, before i get more people
hating me.

Day 13 by Alan Gooi

“Some things you are not able to change,
But I do believe that we ourselves
are able to change.
For the better.”

even though Alan did not complete his run
perfectly. but i could feel that he wanted
to, he just can’t.

he did try.

and i’m goin to try.

atleast i should just keep my mouth shut.

i remember this saying,

“if you’ve got no better things to say, don’t say.”

sorry for the uncheck post.
feelin tired after the retreat.
less than 2 hours sleep last night.
i swear it’s a fuckin struggle to
do this:

and 2 hours to countdown for
tomorrow’s meeting.

sigh.

-chinyew

ok, i lied.

i want attention.

i’m getting none.

of all the hard effort that
i’ve put in.

none.

but as Tom Mooney quoted on Day 12

“Sometimes what I want just doesn’t come,
But that’s the struggle; to know what I want.”

Tom is many-many things.
he does digital work for film, commercials,
music video. during his run, he was in
a progress of making a game.

and most important of all,
he teaches art in Korea.

now, you can choose not to listen to me,
but from an official lecturer from Korea,
his advise is best to take.

his after all a teacher.

they say,

it’s when you teach,
you actually learn the lesson.

i struggle and struggle to figure
how my graphic novel story is gonna
come out. day by day, i’m always
in deep thought. thinking. plotting.
dinner time. toilet time. working time.
discussion time. oohhh, discussion,
don’t tell my boss, i’m always drifting
away into deep space.

but i could pull out faces.

“yes,umm..good….yes….i see.”

a balance has to be there.

i seem to be giving too much here.

will try not to think too much
tomorrow.

but,

i have to know what i really want.

i want to do art. i want to tell stories.
i want the force to take over me for the
quality. and i for the quantity.

i want. i want.

-chinyew

i like this. i really-really like this.

Jordan’s a good friend of ours.

his work is.. well, you can see yrself.

with the first few 10 days, he went slow.
showing us mild 3d animation.
subtle soft meanings.

but on day-11.

ohhh… day-11.

he shocked us all with this piece.

his work literally went mad itself.
the car exploded to life!
(better than transformers)

and i like to witness this such sudden momentum.

it hits you hard when you least expected.

jordan was one of the first artist
that we compromise/give-in to have
computer generated images as the 40 works.
(now we’re open to anything, as long it’s interesting!)

his entire run felt like entering the mind
of a 3d-avantgarde-abstract-monk.
and if yr interested for some
3d-abstract+metaphorical+philosophical
and a little bit twist of a Zen flavor to it,
check out his entire run.

Day 11 by Jordan Tan

“I went a little bit mad today,
full-force experimentation.
To be honest, this is my real-style.
The past ten-days are just warmed up.”

And now for today’s work:
(almost didn’t made it,
because i was stuck in an endless
debate with a good friend of
“finding Average”. he believes
average can be calculated by statistic.
i agree. but i also believe average is merely a perception
of one’s mind. we were going in circles
but yet i felt we were talking about the same
thing but in different realms. his and mine.
well, this are what good o’ pals are for.)